It has been 12 days since those
final seconds ticked over to herald in the new year. How am I coming along with my new year’s resolutions? Well, here’s the thing. Previous transgressions have long
taught me I am a bit of a commitment-phobic and lack the willpower to see
through any sort of major resolution requiring prolonged obligations (hence my
nickname as the runaway bride but THAT is another story!). Simply put, I don’t
make resolutions. Instead I simply
make decisions then just follow it up with action, albeit giving myself wriggle
room to tweak, modify and occasionally discarding as I see fit.
But resolutions, no way, not me.
Okay, I confess. The last
time I made any sort of New Year’s resolution I must have been in my 20s. Seeing I just turned 45, maybe I owe it
to myself to revisit this whole ‘new year’s resolution’ thingy. Hmm… Where DO I
start?
So. I am only too aware of how traffic conditions and other
drivers drive me so crazy I feel myself transforming into a highly emotive
(that’s code for swearing) driver.
Mind you, its not that my ‘repertoire’ turns the air blue --it normally
starts with “bloody idiot”, followed by “where in the hell did you get your
license from”. I should also qualify I
don’t hurl these insults out of the car but rather mutter them under my
breath, but I guess that doesn’t
make a difference. I did however, for a
spell, try to replace “bloody idiot” with “flaming galah” but it just didn’t
flow off the tongue as fluidly. A
quick explanation for the non-Aussies reading this: a galah is a common Australian cockatoo with a reputation of
being stupid. You get the
picture. Not so pretty. Next?
Writing a40somethinglife. What started out so promising with an
average 8-10 pieces each month has dwindled to a pitying ONE every (gulp!) 6
months (or so)! I know! Bad! What happened?
My writing career took off and as more people read it, I started
psychoanalyzing everything I wrote about and agonizing that the topic matter
might be too mundane! That, and I
started getting offers for work which led to the launch of “Write
Content”. I love my work but I
really need to devote more time to this ‘baby’ before it evolves into a
50somethinglife! Okay, so that’s two resolutions so far! Looks like I’m on a roll!
While I’m at it, I might as well add
to the following of my ever growing list: exercise more (yes), moisturize more
(patchy.. no pun intended!), drink less (no), stress less (getting there), be more organized
(patchy), learn how to sew (finally started), eat cleaner (feels ‘mahfun’ ie
troublesome) – and I could go on.
After all, there is ALWAYS room to improve, no? Frankly, instead of feeling motivated,
putting together this list just makes me feel exhausted and intimidated before I can even get started – which leads me right
back to where I started in the first place – I JUST don’t 'do' New Year’s resolutions.
What I will do however, is continue
to TRY to set a good example for my girls by being true to myself, always
trying to be the ‘better person’, not putting up with BS AND continue to work
on being a more zen driver. Oh,
and I will DEFINITELY finish my book this year AND up the ante in all my
writing projects. Watch this
space!
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